Love Everyone

especially the ones who envy
spoil them with love
swallow your pride and serve
this is the rule of life

What is Real

the beautiful people you meet
the old friends you came back for
the family you have beside you

none of the above
when all things revolve around you
and you find so much excuse

everyone is real in one way and another
it's just the matter of your perspective
the way you see people
the way you treat them

all of the above
all the people you meet has something in them
a spirit of sainty
a hope for love

And the pain you feel is a different kind of pain.

One moment a bliss
One second it vanishes
I try to recuperate
Do various things, to keep this pain away.

The reason above I do not know
concealment of possible excuse
I'm afraid to admit
All I know is, it all boils down to fear.

The unknown is always beside me
keeping me alive, always wary of the present
and I am thankful for
the beautiful uncertain

I hate and love this life.

I hate it because..
I get more lonely this time than I was ever before.
I can't show what how truly feel even to those close to my heart.
I have to act more frequently and deny myself for so many times.
I don't have the kind of friends I could hang out with all the time.
I have never experienced loving someone romantically and being loved back in return.
For the longest time, I never felt like I have achieved anything, I have never received recognition
I don't get to socialize with people that much
I'm so caught in between I feel like my life is a mess
I feel like I have no life at all
Life is freakin boring, unlike before--i want to be who I was but I'm happy for who I am damn contradiction.
I need to achieve things and I don't feel like I get to achieve much.
I need to talk and meet people and socialize men I'm totally missing a lot.
I feel to much pressure from my parents wanting me to put up a new business for them.
I'm just frustrated with life itself I never felt like this before.